Your Grace is Enough

For all who are asking, here is the most recent picture of my two kids, Jade and Chance, with their cousin Colten(my brother Caleb's son).

We spend the better part of last week at my parents' house in San Antonio. It was nice to have a break from regular life and a little extra help. Brad joined us on the weekend so he and Jade could enjoy Sea World, which they did!

On a different note, Chance is still crying more often than not, and I think in a weird way we are starting to get used to it. However, it is hard for the independent, self-sufficient, "Sure I can do that" person that I am to be doing only the bare minimum. Right now I'm not not organizing any playgroups, planning any major outreach events, or even leading a summer Bible study. I realize Satan uses this fact to tell me various lies like, "You're not much use to God because you're not "doing" very much." But God gave me a gift through song last Sunday morning to prove him (Satan) wrong.

I was praying during our worship time that God would give me more time to spend with Him and show me what He desires for my life right now. Just about then we started to sing Chris Tomlin's song Your Grace Is Enough. Through the words of that song, God reminded me that His Grace is more than enough for me. It covers the days that I fail to open my Bible, it covers the days I question my purpose, it covers the list of things I think I should be doing for Him.

He gently said yet again, it's not about my actions, it's about my heart. He longs for me to love Him first, before I labor for Him. Praise God, because even a mother of two, one being a screaming baby, can do that.

This is my life

For two weeks I've been trying to write my first blog. Twice I've tried to take cute pictures of my two children to post and several other times I've tried to just write something, anything. There are many other things that are being neglected right now too, but this is my life.

The main reason for this distraction is that five weeks ago we welcomed a precious baby boy into our world. Chance is eating and sleeping great, he has a full head of dark hair, he is adorable, and all three of us are in love with him. HOWEVER, unless he is sleeping or eating, he's crying. (This is why I attached this picture of our sweet baby boy, this is my life.

Jade loves her little brother and hasn't asked us to, "take him back to the hospital" yet, as another friend's child did. But she does occasionally ask me to, "put him down and hold me."

We don't leave the house much, my fridge is empty, as soon as one child goes to sleep the other wakes up, I can't complete a sentence, and my house looks like a tornado hit it. This is my life.

However, we have amazing friends that are still bringing us dinners, family and friends who put their schedules on hold to help with one or both babies, and a little girl with pigtails who can always find the pacifier.

In the future, I hope to post fun pictures and more meaningful thoughts, but until then, this is my life and I wouldn't change a thing.